It’s been a fortnight since the new year started and it’s been a year since I started
reblogging. I have been wanting to write since the year started. With most people around writing a post a day for the blogathon, I was really finding it tough to come up with a single post. What I knew was that I wanted to begin the year with a happy post. But like they say – Happiness lies in moments, you will miss it, if you go looking for it. So finally, I just decided to write , simply.
♦ We sold my dad’s car. I wanted to blog about it. But then, that was a sad post, so I didn’t begin with it. But here we are and that’s what I am writing about. Dad had bought a Wagon-R in 2010, brand new, in silver color. He had hardly driven it. It had run an odd 13K kms in three years. It was the Duos version with LPG and Petrol. I really wanted to retain the car with us, but due to various reasons which can be a post of it’s own, we had to decide to give it away.
We preferably wanted someone whom we knew to buy it, so we can at least see them drive it around. But all the people never got back after all dilly-dallying. So we took a decision and gave it away to UTrust, last Monday. Mom cried. I did too. But what’s a car, when we lost Dad itself?
♦ I got a diary and have been writing in it more often than here. I carry it around in my bag and it’s nice to write down thoughts as they come to my mind, unlike thinking that I should blog about it and then sitting blank in front of the laptop a few hours later. 😐
♦ I had been experiencing these mood swings from a long time now. There are times when I read a lot of positive stuff and think that I will totally change my negative attitude, I feel positive, full of charge and raring to go. Within just a couple of hours, for the slightest matter I will be extremely depressed. Like the thought that I have been really lonely in the new office, since a month and a half. Going alone to lunch and everything.
A single thought leads to a whole rush of other thoughts, by the end of which I am so depressed. Sometimes the depression is so much that thoughts like putting an end to life will solve problems or moving away to a distant land, far from everyone, to a place I am unknown, will make me free, cross my mind. The mood switches are extreme and sometimes scare me.
Speaking about it to a friend, made me find out that this behavior also has a name – Bipolar Disorder. Though he didn’t actually mean that I am suffering from it, reading about it, made me find a lot of familiar stuff. But maybe it’s not too severe right now. Even if it is that, I would like to get out of it only on my own.
♦ I joined Just Books in December and have been having a great time renting and reading books that I have been planning since some time. I just finished the book One Amazing Thing by Chitra Banarjee Divakaruni. It was great! I really liked it. Now I got Five People you meet in Heaven by Mitch Albom, a book I have been wanting to read from a long time. Join a library, if you want be happy reading a lot of books and not feel guilty spending too much on them. 🙂 Though I like and believe in the quote – A book worth reading is a book worth buying, it isn’t really practical always. I am spending for the membership and yet reading books worth much more, in fact priceless ones!
So there we go.. I wrote my first post of 2014, a pretty long one, I see. 🙂