* I think the best kind of writing is when we simply write what’s on our minds. Not bothering about anything else in the world. I have now started thinking of stuff like, writing a book (maybe!). I know it may just a passing thought and something impossible to do for me. But who cares? What’s wrong in imagining it’s true? Every idea is first a seed of thought, sown deep in our mind, isn’t it?
* With so many people at home, sometimes it gets so difficult to co-ordinate and do something which is satisfactory to all. Bg has been working like crazy for the past one year, trying to co-ordinate with all the different guys – masons, laborers, granite layers, electrician, plumber, tile layer and so many more. He has been out standing in the sun and running about like a headless chicken in trying to supply the necessary stuff and monitoring the guys. Making innumerable trips to the site and elsewhere for water supply, cement unloading, and other material unloading and God knows what all! I feel, every single person in the house takes advantage of the fact that he works from home, 4 days a week. With them it’s almost like “oh! Bg will be there at home anyway.” kinda attitude.
And.. I blame my husband totally for this attitude of theirs! It is he who is available at every beck and call. He is the one, who will get up in the midst of work to go drop off someone, pick-up someone, to bring groceries, to go to the site suddenly if there’s a need, go to every temple, be available to drive his parents to every place out of station. The ONLY person, he takes an easy-go, she will adjust attitude, is with me! (Well.. his whole reasoning is that I am his wife and I will understand, unlike the others.) He ends up doing most stuff, despite having an elder brother, who can (and should!) share the responsibilities ( who takes the escape route as soon as one is available ). I can’t speak too much in this matter, as I don’t wanna become the person who comes between them ( the bahu, who broke the house ).
When it comes to important decision taking stuff, Bg’s suggestions aren’t taken equally. At such times, the others have their say! Every time they are ready with a long set of comments about what’s wrong in what has been done, rather than sharing the responsibilities. Now the house-warming function dates have been set for this month end and cards have been printed, despite Bg’s warnings that the work wouldn’t be complete. Now that the completion is staggering with people not turning up, my darling husband is upset. After coming to this stage, now he says, he won’t bother about what will happen. Why, couldn’t he employ this attitude much before? At-least it would have driven the others to take up more responsibilities. I know, in the end, they will end up making him a scape goat and he will still end up being one, happily! I am so irritated! 😡
* I am a bundle of contradictions. When I am loaded with work, I don’t think about stuff. But the moment I am free, I start thinking, if this is the right career for me? I want to do something that will make me happy, something that wouldn’t take up all my time. Yet I want to earn enough to make a saving for the future too. Some times I want to do certifications and look up and what I should be doing in this field and some times I just don’t wanna be here, where everything ages quickly. You have to constantly keep upgrading your skills, if you want to make any progress. But then again, I am not sure, if this is the field, I want to be in, 10 years down the line. Sheesh! I am a mess!
*My sister had called me today and said she was feeling low. All along till now, in her ten years of career, she had good friends at office. In fact her friends and she moved to the same companies when they switched too. Now since they have been put apart in different projects, in different locations, she is feeling all alone. She said she doesn’t feel like going to office, she has no good company, people there are hostile and she feels like she doesn’t belong. There are just a group of people who go along for lunch and tea, no friends. What do I tell her, when I have been going through this for more than a year now? I had no company for lunches too, till recently. I now feel like I am not even capable of making friends, some one like the buddies from college or school? I just told her, it may get better with time. Have hope. 😐
* S, a friend from our knitters group in Ravelry is probably one of the best people I have met in my life. The kind of enthusiasm she has at her age (58) is amazing. Even at this age she and a similar few from the group, enjoy working and are saddened by the thought of retirement. On the other hand at this age, I am so unsure about work, wanting to work etc. Despite having a full-time job, she manages to knit (in fact churn out new hand-made things, every few days!), keeping a beautiful house, gardening, reading books, meeting people and staying in touch with friends! All of it! To me she comes across as a super-woman! But I love her most, for the warm person she is. In fact the warmest stranger (the first time), I met in my life. There is love, warmth and concern in every conversation of hers, with every one! Every single person who meets her has the same opinion! I am plain lucky to have met her. One of my role models, she is! Why I mention her suddenly? I met her this Sunday, at our group gathering and it felt great! 🙂
A long post full of randomness and light heart at the end! 🙂