If I let things be, the days that ran into weeks, will run into months. I wonder what gets to me. Sometimes, I am on a writing spree and I want make a note of all that’s happening. Then there comes a lull, which will stretch into hibernation, if I let it. A pattern that I’ve noticed is that whenever I am watching F.R.I.E.N.D.S, I stop blogging. That’s because any spare minute that’s available, I wanna watch an episode. But I am determined to break that jinx and that’s why I am here! 🙂
The job change is the big thing that’s happening now. The work has doubled since the time I resigned, with hardly any time to spare. To top it, the lady who is our house-help is on leave since almost a month now! My MIL is behaving totally indifferent to the whole matter and staying silent. Not taking a call on getting in touch with the current lady or getting a new help. I have brought up this topic a couple to times, only to get a cold response. Now when someone (read as me) is there to do the chores, let’s just put off the arranging a help for as long as possible, isn’t it? It’s all my fault. Putting up with unwanted behavior and not taking a stand about things since the beginning has put me in the current position. Now when I try to break the pattern that’s formed, there’s a hullabaloo.
It’s an old story, about which I’ve written very little here, that my co-sister is a big time work shirker. From the time I have been married and come into this house, she has given innumerable reasons to not help around. Initially it was her health reasons, so I let it go. Later she just made it a habit to not do work. Then she was pregnant, so I let it go again. Later it was that she had a small baby to care for. Now the baby is almost a year old and yet I don’t see her come to help in the smallest of tasks at home.
As if this isn’t enough, my MIL does not want to lose her control on the kitchen. The result of that, you ask? Though we have two houses, live on different floors, and it’s been close to two years, since we shifted, we have only one functional kitchen. My MIL cooks. I have to do all the other chores. I chop the veggies, I place the cooker, boil the milk, clean up after everything, now even washing vessels (thanks to the no house-help situation). Yet I don’t have the liberty to cook what I want. I have made peace with that too. But she doesn’t let go off them! She cooks for everyone. The preparatory tasks for the whole affair is huge for me, considering we are 8 members including both houses. This has become an every damn day saga in my life. Speaking to BG isn’t helping and people are not sensitive enough to understand my misery.
In the midst of all this, people keep harping about us not having a baby yet! With me leaving at 7 in the morning and my husband returning at 11 in the night and with the work pressure and all these other chores, with no rest, what do you expect!? 😡 I mean, it’s become impossible to attend any social gathering, without at least one reference being made to our no baby situation.
I really want to get away from this mayhem for a while and have a peaceful life. But there seem to be no such opportunities around. All that I can do is take a small trip for a couple of days and try to find solace in that. So, that’s what I am doing. I have planned for a trip to Agumbe, this month end for me and BG. I have laboriously planned each day, with where we are gonna be and what we are gonna do.I am so looking forward to this. I hope things work out and no last minute thing comes up, like it usually does. I’ll be heart-broken otherwise.
It’s amazing how I start a post with an intention to write something and the post turns out to be on something totally different ! This one turned out to be a big rant! But anyway I had to write it sometime and get it out! So, “how you doing?” 😉