Life keeps posing new challenges. Sometimes I feel life is all about just facing these and trudging along. I get into this kinda mode/mood when things change. Even if they have changed by my own choice.
I am at a new job now. It’s been less than two weeks. I am missing my old friends and colleagues so much! Though I had been with them for just six months, I loved it. The work environment there was extremely nice. The people that hung around there with, were extremely positive and going there gave me a good feel. I looked forward to going to office.
I used to travel for four hours in a day, which by the way was one of the main reasons I decided to make a move when the current opportunity came along. But I loved the travel time because I had great cab-mates. Our topics of discussion varied from world politics to MIL issues, from property, land, real estate to love stories. We discussed moving back to villages and farming at lengths. We had our own snack parties and treats on the way back home. It was a lovely time!
Though I was referred here by an old friend and colleague, I am not comfortable yet. We are good friends, but here I have been made to report to her. That feels weird to me somehow. We worked for the same team before too. We were on the same level. I had been associated with that team longer than she was and hence I was there when she joined and we became good friends. Now it’s weird to think of her as my reporting manager and I wonder if it will affect my personal relationship with her.
BG asks me, what I would have done if we were at the same level together and one day she had got promoted to a position above me and a similar situation would have occurred. I guess I would have felt weird then as well. I know and agree that it’s all normal in the IT world or in fact in any organization. I need to deal with it professionally and focus on my responsibilities. All said and done, it will still take some time for the weird feeling to go away.
Another reason I am yet to mingle here is because I miss those varied discussions and talks. Here it is usually gossip, comments or reporting things that were overheard. These are the conversations that people are always involved in. I have seen such environments previously also in my career and I really detest it. I feel I thrived in the positive environment and it did a lot of good for my professional growth too.
I made the choice to move because at some point of time in my life, I had to prioritize my personal life too. I am not growing any younger, am I? The work, travel and stress was not doing any good to my health and I had to choose. The current workplace is about 15 min from my house. I get some extra sleep now, have time to go for a walk again in the morning. I don’t need to worry or panic about how I will reach home, even if I get late. Most importantly I am not struck in the traffic twice a day, building my stress. These are important factors and maybe I should give myself enough time to like the new work and workplace. For now, I’ll go back to reminiscing about the old days and feel blah here!