Okay, this is not going to be easy. 😐 Well nobody ever told it’s going to be easy. Maybe it was just my over-confidence.
As if the pain in the ribs wasn’t enough, I slipped in the bathroom today to further pull the same muscles and have been struggling with the pain ever since. I should be thankful that I didn’t fall down, I just slipped and held on to the door. I wonder what is happening. I should stop thinking and worrying so much.
I have been over thinking and worrying so much that I have been having many dreams at night. Not that all are bad. But keep feeling like my brain is just not resting. Have also been waking up in the night too. Whenever I wake up, I panic. Like yesterday I woke up with a stomach ache and I started to panic. I then decided to wait for a while and things went back to normal.
I worry about going into labor in the middle of the night and that BG may not be around. What if we don’t get cabs, how will mom and I manage? Will we have time enough to wait till BG arrives? I have become so clingy. I want him around me all the time. It is extremely comforting if he is around and scary when he isn’t.
My love for him has grown multi-fold since this pregnancy. He has been my strength and biggest support system. Held my hand, rubbed my feet, massaged my sore back, eaten things I couldn’t finish, calmed me, hugged me, heard me, tolerated me and so much more. I am so happy that my child has a wonderful father! *Touch-wood*.
Another two and half months to go… God.. Give me the strength!