Last year when I wrote this letter to you, I thought I should try and write one letter every year, at least for as long as possible. So here I am on your second birthday, putting down my thoughts.
I know I have been way too busy the last two months, with spending more than 15 hours of my day working. The work from home becoming more of a bane than a boon. I had hoped it would help me, be around your more, but turns out your Amma has to work twice as harder to prove than she can pull it off even though she works remotely. But baby, I promise this is a phase and once I get through it I will be back to spending more time with you. Even with this situation I want you to know, that Amma is trying hard to find a balance. She makes it point to feed you your dinner, take you out on walks, put you to sleep and goes back to working late into the night, just so she doesn’t lose out on her time with you. I hope you grow up to be a person, who acknowledges the fact that she did her best.
You have been an amazingly understanding child, hardly ever creating a ruckus when am headed to office or leave you off at grandma’s on some rare occasion. You’ve adapted well with your Ajja-Ajji, the caretaker aunty, Ajji-Doddajji and you enjoy your time with them too. You love spending time at both houses. Am so happy about it and I hope you continue to be the same as you grow up. I hope you always remember that the best gift you can give someone, is your time.
As you celebrate your second birthday and step into this third year, I hope you take everything that comes with it, equally joyfully. Like going to the play school or a formal school at the end of the year. I hope you learn to enjoy it. I am super-excited and mighty nervous about you going to play school in a few weeks from now. Every time I ask you, “Kanda neenu school ge hogtiya?“, you excitedly respond with a “uuuun“. 😀 I hope your response is the same after the first day.
It’s a delight to listen to you talk. You hardly spoke anything till just 2 to 3 months back. But now, you respond to almost every question we ask, you can repeat close to everything that we ask you to speak, you’ve learnt to count from 1 to 10, can name most of the days of the week and finish off the lines of a rhyme for me. I mean , I am amazed! Maybe it is normal for a two year old. But for your first time mom, it seems like an amazing achievement. Trust me, it is! I hope you always keep up the enthusiasm to learn new things in the years to come.
Did I mention how proud of you, your Appa is, or how much he loves you? He is never going to be as expressive as your Amma. It’s not in his nature. But he loves you the most. Even more than me, I suppose. 😛 But I am not complaining. He may not smother you with kisses ever so often like I do. But he too has done everything that your Amma does for you – from feeding you, changing diapers/clothes, giving you a bath, cleaning potty, putting you to sleep, carrying you, hugging you, kissing you, correcting you and so much more. I hope you grow up to respect and love him and appreciate all that he has done too.
Reading this letter, am sure it’s quite evident that your Amma has a lot of hope from you. I will try my best never to bog you down with my expectation. Forgive me if I do, am learning with you too. Becoming your Amma didn’t come with a handbook and I am figuring out things on my own.
They say when your son reaches your shoulder height, he becomes your friend. Considering how short your Amma is, I hope we become friends sooner and stay that way always. Wishing you the best in life. May you be blessed and may all your desires come true. Happy happy happy birthday my baby! ❤ I wish I could hold on to the baby in you a little while longer.
They call it the terrible twos. But here’s to terrific twos! Happy Birthday once again! ❤
Lots of love,