Three years later..

“I am not in a mood to take the bus all the way till there, Daddy will you drop me?” He would agree instantly most of the times. Sometimes he would crib a little and scold me for telling in the last minute, but he would still drop me. The fact that the place was…

GROWiNg up!!

Re-blogging this from my old blog, which I was reading today. I had written this post 5 years back! Am so glad I had made a note of this. Miss you Daddy! 😦 Watched dad becoming a kid again…. 😀 😀 * He recently joined a fifteen day yoga workshop, which happens to finish today.. Being home…

Unrecoverable Loss

Last year on the same day, around this time, me and Mom were already at the hospital. We had to relieve Bg and my BIL, who had stayed there at the night, with Dad. Though Dad’s condition had suddenly gone haywire in the night and his BP had shot up to 200 odd, the guys…

Depressed

Today has been a really drab day. I keep suffering from bouts of depression frequently and then I struggle my way out if it, just to be pulled back into it sooner or later. The struggle is very difficult, each time. But I just continue with the hope that one day I will be comfortable…

Horrible Fears

There are things that I am scared of. Things that I don’t wanna think about but end up creeping into my thoughts again and again. I think seeing a death in the family does this to people. As a child I always prayed to God that I should be the first one to die, as…

God’s unseen ways

Just yesterday… I felt lonelier than what I already felt. I felt much downer in the dumps. I didn’t feel like talking over the phone to my husband or my best friend or anyone. I was looking up for articles on signs and symptoms of depression and was wondering about seeking medical help. And today… I…

The Senior Citizen

If you had held on, we would be celebrating your 60th birthday today! We would have had that Shashtipoorthi function that I was planning from the time you turned 59. I wanted to do something for you, in some way to show that I love you, despite fighting with you so much. I wanted you and everyone…

Reality and Denial

Life only seems to get tougher and tougher. I always make a big deal of even the small problems. It’s only when we face something big, we realize that we were better off before. Everyday, there are so many incidents that I am reminded of. My mind doesn’t wanna believe that dad is no more….

Lost in the dark

It hurts! And words can’t explain how much! The backbone of our family, my father, passed away last Saturday. Words fail me at this moment. Below are pictures of the flowers which were in bloom the day after he passed away, in his terrace garden that he cared for, like his own child. We miss…