WordPress tells me it’s been 3 years since I started blogging! 🙂 That’s cool, though it’s been longer, considering that I had another blog before (of which I have no clue now) 😐
First thing that popped into my mind when I saw WP’s congratulatory message was, it’s been 3 years since I got married too. Did I start this blog, to crib about my married life?! Actually No. Surprisingly so, though SO many things happen every day, with my in-laws and there are things that pull me down and things that I am proud of at times, I have somehow held back writing about that here.
Another reason for that could be the fact that though I tend to get emotional (both sad and angry) very soon, but after a while I put that aside and try to come back to normalcy, both in my words and deeds. Things and words affect me instantly. But by the time I sit to write down about it, I wouldn’t be in the same frame of mind. Works for the good most times.
WP also reminded me that this time I didn’t do an Anniversary (Wedding wala) post in November. That’s because I was pretty pissed off with my husband that day. We in fact had a good fight and I had a good cry before going to bed. I was in a really foul mood by the time the day came to end.
Anyone who has read my old posts would know that I love to be pampered on birthdays and anniversaries. On all other days it’s ok, I mean the routine has to be followed and I do that diligently. My argument is that twice a year can’t a person think of or plan something special? It doesn’t have to be something big, but something out of the usual. Though we have discussed and argued about this at lengths, nothing seems to change year after year.
BG’s argument is that he has never seen any such celebration or special treatment on his birthday or his parents’ anniversary so far, so he is not used to the idea. My argument on the other hand is that I have seen and experienced the special treatment from all friends and family. Also, since I have changed so much since marriage to adjust to his family, can he not change and try and make 2 days a year special for us? Not the right line of argument, I know, but I can’t help it!
This anniversary saw me go to work as usual, a visit to the temple, eating a Dosa outside (which we do on many other days) and getting back home to finish all the chores and get things ready for the next day! This left me mighty upset and angry.
Luckily or unluckily our birthdays fall back to back too. I always try to think of something different to give him on his birthday and sometimes I go overboard doing the same. This upsets me even further when the next day he has nothing planned. It’s not about expecting in return, but about his lack of effort. It hurts me when he says, what’s special about this day, every day is special. But that’s only in words really, because every day my time is eaten up by work, chores, clean up etc., leaving me with a “zero” special feeling!
With our birthdays coming next month and I was pretty excited till now and also had an awesome gift plan, which I excitedly saw to completion, well in advance. Now with everything ready I was super happy, until WordPress took me into the above stream of thoughts. It’s dreadful to think of a sad birthday, after a sad anniversary. Well some consolation, is that I’ve bought a gift for myself, along with buying one for him! 😛 😀
Following my New Year resolution and making myself happy! 🙂 Isn’t that good, what say?